Wednesday I shared about my challenge of an empty tank after one year in the writing race. I asked God to show me if I was travelling in the right direction when I attended the ICWC last weekend…
God was faithful to answer my prayers for help and direction by a few divine connections. But the most exciting event of the weekend was when He spoke to me early Saturday morning as I poured my empty soul out to Him in my prayer journal. His words were short but clear, as usual: “You are trying too hard. You cannot force grace; it flows from My heart. It isn’t wrenched out by effort on your part. You can’t fill yourself or grow yourself up.”
Oh. I knew that. Then how did I forget so soon? I had allowed that pesky demon, fear into my life. Fear that I wasn’t good enough caused me to panic, blocking the flow of creativity. Fear that if I didn’t blog and post on Face Book a certain amount of time per day, no one would follow my blog, then I’d be a nobody from nowherseville, and no one would be willing to publish me, blah, blah, blah… Have you been there?
I’m happy to report: I'm still in the race. Not becuase I'm a better writer than anyone else out there, but because I made a decision to get rid of fear. I purposed in my heart to allow God’s grace to flow into my tank, filling me up with Him instead of trying to run this race myself. As I said on Monday, it's not about me. It's this gift He's given me, buring a hole in my heart, compelling me to tell everyone I can how exquisite this God is that I serve.
What about you? How do fears paralyze you, hindering you from being and doing all God has called you to? I will stand with you in prayer in this fight against the enemy of our souls and destroyer of our dreams. We are a threat to Satan because we carry the words of life to a dark world.
My word to you today is: You can do this. You can be a writer, or whatever else the Lord has put in your heart. God is on your side. He believes in you and so do I.
Ladies and Gentlemen, start your computers...
